To be or not to be..

What a way to start one's work hours. Shortly after arriving at the bus stop, a colleague told me that there' s been an update regarding our offer. I won't go into details since I fear that would somehow be a breach of contract. Although that in itself is laughable. The gist is that we were to commit a fraud, or a half-fraud, if there is such a thing. We were to sell something where the customer would get less than what they actually are paying for. And that we were to hide that fact from the customer. And oh, I think it's also relevant to mention that most of these customers end up not using the service at all. So that's hundred of dollars down the drain. And to commit it at this time of recession, it's murder. And it's also killing me. As Jamie Kennedy said in a similar situation, it's soul-sucking. It's funny considering the company mentioned something about integrity in its mission statement. So much for that.

I vowed to myself that I'd be able to get out of this company unscathed, or with as little dent to my morality as possible. I'm not going to sell my soul for P400+/day. Now, maybe you're thinking what the hell Am I still doing here? Why not quit already? Believe me I'd thought of that a thousand times. And everytime the thought just keeps getting more and more attractive. If only I only have myself to think of, if only I'm not the eldest in the family, if only the economy is not in a dump right now. It just is hard to wade through the piles of "if only" and simply pass my "two weeks notice". But never for a moment think that I never fantasize about it. Ah! but it'll come to pass soon enough, and that'll be the day. In the meantime, I'm as motivated as a slow-frying fish. So to be or not to be... succumb to temptation and be the best sales person there is. Or hold on to the last shred of integrity and not perform up to par.That is the question. And Shakespeare doesn't have anything to do with it. Sadly.