so i thought of this entry because there are a LOT of times when i'd think of the most mundane, the most random things and more often than not they're thoughts that are too short to warrant their own post, but are the most telling about myself, so I wanna write them down here. I'll try to write them real time, and some posts will be how I am feeling at that very moment.
07242011 3:16
I wish to meet somebody who can keep me on my toes every time. there. there goes my prayer. ^_^
07242011 4:20am
...like seeing a falling star, bittersweet. a brief encounter with happiness. here now, gone the next. but just like the star, it's never coming back. so there's this thing called, moving on.
07242011 4:32am
This is Me. weird. a hopeless romantic. mushy. not your typical girl-next-door type. i don't think the same as everyone else, don't act the same as everyone else, behave like the rest of the others, don't dig the same songs you do, watches a little too much of movies, being so serious on some things all of a sudden, unpredictable, couldn't care less for things the other care a little too much about. a freak. but i'm never gonna change for anyone, no, never for anyone. So if it means ______, so be it.
072429011 4:49am
ahhh why I am feeling so down tonite. this is sooo not me. lol but i guess it can happen once in a while. perhaps it is from listening to this song nonstop for the last hour? ^___^
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07242011 8:13am
I'm becoming a facebook whore, and I'm not liking it very much. uh, i think i should get off of it but I'm not doing it cold turkey, lol. a little at a time. practice moderate everything. :)
07242011 8:25am
Sometimes I ask myself why I think the way I think, but then it must be all the books I read as a kid. the "conditioning" concept in Psychology is really true. I think those books, and those movies, made me the way I am today. Now I wonder if things could have been different had I tried to behave the way others do. If I read stuff that were way too much for such a young mind to bear. I guess I'll never know.
07262011 8:10am
We all have our own ideas of achieving peace, i mean, not eternal peace lol. more like a peaceful moment, when you can relax and think. And one of my favorite is propping my feet up on the window ledge in my room and lying back in bed, staring at the sky, watching the clouds go by, and think.
( there's a vacant lot at the back of the house so I have an unhindered view of the sky ). with or without music, it does the trick all the time. :)
07302011 12:34am
I love it when it's raining heavily on my day off: blanket, bottomless coffee, movies, books, early am peace and quiet. aaah I'm all set. plus i could sleep in for as loooong as I want lol.
07302011 4:04am
I hate it when my happiness is in the hands of another. I totally hate it. I guess that would make me one very lonely person. but i guess i could live w/ myself. i think this will change but i have zero idea when.
07302011 5:30am
i feel like i'm rooted at the exact same spot i've been on for the last 5 yrs. i should seriously consider moving a step forward. but how.*.*
08012011 7:33am
i don't agree w/ that song, the art of letting go, art is supposed to be beautiful but i see no beauty in it, just pain. ok, so one might argue that there is beauty in pain, but d*mn, tell that to the person who's hurting.
08032011 10:53am
I just found a new song to be added to my playlist for the BIG day lol, along with Brian Melo's All I Ever Wanted . <3 <3 <3 (in case the song's deleted on youtube, it's The Last Goodnight's In Your Arms )
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08062011 6:34am
what sucks abt love is, if the other person hurts you, u try your mightiest to hate him, but u never can't. u get disappointed maybe, pissed off, sure, but never hate. and u feebly try to curse him, and promise urself never to see him or talk to him again. but what hurts the most is knowing that even as you say these words, u know deep inside, at his first call, at the first sign, you'll come running back to him. that's what sucks. ahhh love's a bitch..
08062011 6:56am
sad fact: the rest of my body follows my brain, everything, except my heart.
08122011 11;06am
i know it's a lie, but i'm still falling for it, hook, line, and sinker. i'm just like any other girl after all.
08142011 12:09am
your heart fears easily, so you gotta trick it, put your hand where it is and say All Is Well. - from the movie 3 Idiots
08302011 12:25am
...when you're thinking of someone who's thinking of someone else. LIFE can be such a joke sometimes.
09012011 5:15am
him for me - the grand canyon. me for him - an unheard of, remote island no one can even pinpoint on a map. go figure.
10032011 5:20am
he's everything that's wrong. and yet, somehow, it had felt so right. i hate it when i'm missing someone. absolutely.hate.it.
10032011
ok you're cute. and nice. and decent. and smart. but i aint gonna like you. cos you're someone i might fall in love with.
12.29.2011 how do you get over someone? get over crashed hopes, layers of disappointments? i do it the hard way. no keeping-myself-busy trick, no drinking to forget. in fact, i wallow in the sadness, i take it head on. i allow myself to miss the person, day after day, week after week, til i forget i'm trying to get over someone and just realize i'm already over that someone. it's worked for me countless times before, no reason why it won't this time around.
01.14.12
early am thought. ang pag-aasawa,for me, it's too much work. i know. it's a selfish thought. but, just sayin'. ahhh i wish i can stay young and single forever.
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