Saturday, August 21, 2010

a producer for a night ^^

hmmm... it's half past 9 and I'm finally done selecting and editing the songs we will be using for our presentation. whew! so excited! am streaming it right now while reading the script i wrote and imagining how the play is going to unfold with the music. since it's top secret, i will be posting the songs after the play's done.^__^ also, i somehow felt like I'm a producer (like my idol Teddy of YG - love him!) so that got me very excited as well. hmm.. am thinking -- switch career? oh yeah, in my day dreams lol. but anyway, am not sure what facilities they have in the venue but imma cry buckets if we will not be able to use this music. will be updating!

UPDATE: 2010.08.30
Oh well, the play didn't go down as planned, or rather as I'd imagined. But I still give props to our team for giving it their all despite the fact that we lost one member ( so one scene just had the music background cos no one else thought they could pull off the role). And despite the fact that we just went through a 2hr nightmare of taking live calls for the first time. Until now, my head's still reeling. After taking a couple of calls, I'm like what the hell just happened?! EVERYTHING I've been trying to learn for the past month just flew out the window. Just like that. It was like being in a nightmare and i wanted to shake myself awake but like the worst of 'em nightmares, you can't wake up. So i had to sit there and endure. and actually laughed about it. When it was my buddy's turn to take calls, she got pissed at me cos while the customers yelling at her like crazy, I was laughing! I don't know why. I just thought at that time "Oh Lord, what have we gotten ourselves into?! Did I just flew from the frying pan straight into the fire?! It wasn't funny but it was hilariously funny at the same time. I guess I'm weird that way. Cos we didn't know what to do and we're transferring customers over to another department without being able to do anything to the problem at hand and YET had the gall to ask if they're VERY satisfied with the level of service we provide to them. Funny, right?! Man! I can imagine the next couple of weeks, it ain't gonna be easy. Like Jamie Kennedy once said when he was working the phones too, it's "soul sucking". But, since i wasn't born with a silver spoon on my thin lips, i have to tough it out. Just like I've been toughing the rest of my life out. So lots of good luck to me later. Hwaiting!!! ^__^

Oh btw, here's the music I chose. i still think they're great..

1. Narnia OST - The Beginning
2. Star Wars Theme
3. auto-tuned baby crying
4. Love - Joss Stone
5. Kiss - Dara Park
6. Psycho OST
7. L.O.V.E. - Ashley Simpson
8. How Gee - Bigbang
9. audio of Supernatural/FIFA game mash up
10. Let's Go Crazy - CN Blue
11. Umbrella Remix

Saturday, August 14, 2010

All I Ever Wanted..

Gosh! I think I've just found my wedding song! Now all that's missing is.....pretty much the rest haha. I've only got the song for now. no groom, no date, no location lol. at least this one thing's taken care of, could be a thorny task :). Oh well, if  and when I go down that lane.. this is gonna be the soundtrack, full band too :)

early morning thoughts...

     *sigh* it's become a pattern now. How i spend my days off. Since working the GY shift for some odd years now, I've come to accept the fact that my social life is dead. Not that I mind but when you're awake during the wee hours of the morning, you tend to think of  things that wouldn't otherwise occur to you during the day, when the world is awake and in its usual state of mild chaos.


     Like right now.It occured to me that I've been sort of worrying over the fact that people may think I'm being rude when the fact is I'm just being shy.The thing with me is, I don't warm up easily to people. But when I do, I can be the most garrulous and fun person ever. My previous team mates can attest to that. And I am missing them so dearly now. It's always like this. I join a new team, am just being my introvert self, then i get to know them and them, me, and voila! super fun environment.  Then, I get transferred to another account, I return to my old "fly in the wall" self, just minding my own business and letting the new people form their perceptions of me, and then, after some time, break those perceptions and bond with them well. And then Life happens. And even though it always is hard to leave your comfort zone and the people you love behind, your friends, you just have to do it.and so I am in that awkward stage again. 


     Sometimes, I wish I don't have a shy bone in my body. Cos it's a bit painful when I think some people may think I'm being rude if say, I come across them on the stairs and not greet them. Or say, i enter a room and fail to greet everyone. Or if I don't speak up. When the truth is, I am just so shy to do it. I hate speaking in public and  try to avoid it if I can. I know it's hard to understand. i don't understand it myself and couldn't tell exactly when and at what point in my life this happened.


I used to work in the fastfood industry and..get this..worked as a marketing manager. So that entails a lot of Public Relations right? Yes. And the job description also calls for a lot of event organizing, and for 3 years, I'm living through my big black organizer. And then it just became too much. And still, the shyness never went away, like a curse.


     *sigh again*. The big 3-0 is happening next year, and I'm planning to do something life changing, veer off this life's course and steer away into another direction. Hopefully, this 'shyness' won't hinder that. So help me God.

Friday, August 13, 2010

defining Bittersweet...





Picture this:
1.  I discovered a band, Sparklehorse.
2.  I think they're great. I find most of their songs so moving. poetic. Hauntingly beautiful and melancholy at the same time. So much so that I posted this in my FB:

"there are some music that's meant to be played aloud when you're all alone, and think about bigger things and the world. or be nostalgic over something that we could never have again, or to wistfully dream of a future. most of Sparklehorse's stuff is one of those. "


3. And I thought to myself, "wow, I'm so lucky to have had the chance to listen to these guys...


And a few minutes later...
1. I found out the lead vocalist Mark Linkous is no longer of this world.
2. He committed suicide.
3. .. just a few months ago on my birthday, Mar 06.
4. On a Saturday. Incidentally, the title of one of their songs that I like.


R.I.P Mark! Thank you for the songs you left us. May you be in a better place now..



Sunday, August 8, 2010

...5 places I'm going to before I die!!

I was at the bookstore earlier to buy a notebook and a pen when, as I was waiting for my turn at the cashier, I caught the title of the book an expat was paying for --- 1,001 Gardens You Should See Before You Die. My first thought was: " Hmmm.. lucky him. It seems like he's about to write his next travel itinerary. My next thought was: How about me? Where would I wanna go?

So I thought I'd write about the places I really really wanna visit before I leave this world. Of course, it is ridiculous to write something along the line of 1,001 places to..... haha. To be realistic, I don't have the time nor the resources. I don't think i can travel that extensively in this lifetime, not even in the next lifetime, or the one after that. So here's my list... 5 places I WILL visit before my time's up. Notice the word WILL in upper cases. That's me making a promise to myself, no matter what happens, no matter where life will turn from here, I will make good on this promise. I really hope so since it's just 5, although one destination is touted as "really expensive." I'm kinda tickled with the downgrade hehe, from 1,001 to 5, i think it's funny. But hey, this is not me dreaming or wishing, but actually putting on paper something that I have to do. So here's the black and white:


1.  KYOTO, JAPAN













-- this is my number 1. I've always wanted to go to Japan. I think it'll be such a feast for the senses: strolling around the city and staring at all the electronic billboards around me. Or gawking at the people garbed in outrageously cool but sometimes out-of-this-world fashion, but cool nonetheless. All the Japanese gardens.  A chance of seeing an authentic Geisha. Japan is known to be a very expensive destination, and I wasn't even sure I'd even entertain the thought of eventually going there. That is until last month. I went home last July for a 5-day vacation when I saw an article about Kyoto in the airline's magazine ( which I stole hehe ). The author actually proved that you could do Kyoto on a budget, and even wrote actual lodging houses, the expenses, and people to contact, such as the volunteer guides, which could really come in handy. So yes, I'll be doing Kyoto.

2. VIETNAM
Hanoi, Vietnam--


-- Vietnam used to be my number 1, before I considered going to Kyoto. But it's still a close second. I like the idea of buying say fruits and vegetables from a boat in a floating market, riding in a cyclo pedicab, or getting lost amidst the hustle and bustle of motorcyles in the busy streets of say, Ho Chi Minh. I'd generally want to stay longer in the more scenic and peaceful cities like Hue though. When I think of Vietnam I think of temples, Saigon, boat tours, their rich history and the people which I think is not too different from us in temperament being an Asian country too. I can't really explain why but when I think of going abroad, I think of Vietnam.



3. SOUTH KOREA
Yonggungsa Temple, Busan












-- I think this is self-explanatory, lol.  I soooo love K-Pop so it's only natural that I'd want to visit this country. The truth is I already have an itinerary that starts from Incheon to Busan to Gyeongju and back to Seoul . Primary reason of dropping by Seoul?  To visit YG Entertainment's building!! I have heard and watched so much about it since I follow some of its artists, and hopefully I get to meet some of the YG fam. Waaahhh! Just writing about this makes me so giddy with excitement already. But of course that's not the sole and primary reason, there's also the castles, more temples, more cherry tree, the food! The reason I have an IT is that I almost, almost booked a ticket to Incheon last month when CebuPacific had one of their promo fares. Good thing I found out before I do that I'll be needing a Visa to enter SK. Oh yes, stupid me for forgetting that. I guess because 2 of the places on the list here I cound enter without a Visa. Oh well, I guess I better work on getting myself a Visa first before getting so hyped up over nothing. The good news is that the Visa is free for a less than 60-days stay. The downside is, some say getting a Visa to the US is easier compared to securing a Visa to South Korea. And oh! You'll have to have "some" money in your pocket. Or at least prove to their Consul that  you do. This reminds me of the difficulty I have to get through in securing a Visa to Japan as well. Oh God! Whatever happened to us? Why all these borders? Didn't you gave us, your children, Earth to live in? Why aren't we free to go anywhere?!! lol am getting crazy here. knocks myself on the head*.. :p

4. CHINA
Suzhou, China













-- I'm not really sure yet where to go exactly in China. It's such  a big place but I do have ideas. Of course the Great Wall is a given. But I'd also like to visit Suzhou, China which is considered as the "Venice of the East"? or something like that because of the scenic houses along canals, as you can see in the photo above. Also, I know there are Floating Markets here too and I think it'd be nice to get on one of those boat tours in Guilin. I've seen some great pictures but up to now  don't really know yet the workings of Blogspot so i don't know how to post a lot of pictures in one blog. :( The great thing about China is it can be entered from a lot of places. I have yet to do a full on research about this so I can't be real sure. But what I like about it is if I'm coming from Hongkong, I can head on to China. Same thing if I finally embark on that Vietnam trip. Which also, is coincidentally near Cambodia where the great Angkor Wat awaits. Oh The Great Asian Tour awaits! When I'm I  gonna win the lottery?! lolx.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

I Heart K-Pop~!!!!

Ok, this is looonngggg overdue. I love K-Pop. and most people are weirded out by this because... well, common, I don't speak nor understand Hangul. But as I've posted in FB before, music is universal. and we don't really have to understand the words to get affected by it. The melody, the sound, the voice.. and most love songs that I like really tugs at my heart because of how singers interpret the song. It's just so moving. And the club songs are really danceable too. Ok, autotune is also a big trend in K-Pop right now but I don't really have any problem with it.

I don't know if I'll ever get tired of this genre. I mean, it's become a really big part of my life now. When I'm sad, I listen to it. When I'm about to doze off, I listen to it. When I'm doing my laundry, I listen to it. When it's my day off and I just wanna chill at home, I listen to it. When I'm out in the park jogging at 4am in the morning, it's on my playlist. My warm up and cool down music, K-Pop. When I'm just lying down in bed daydreaming, it's what I listen to. It's like it takes me to a happy place. If love is Kesha's drug, K-Pop is mine. And it's great since you know how music can take you to a certain place and time. I imagine, years from now and I hear some of these songs, it'll bring me right back. So I don't really care if people would comment that patronizing this type of music makes me cheap, or shallow, or it doesn't fit my age. It makes ME happy, and that's all that matters. Besides, it's not like I stopped listening to other artists. I'll always be Coldplay's girl :p and I still like to sing Maroon 5 songs, Matchbox20. i still enjoy songs by H.Duff, Eminem, Jay Z, the list is long and varied.

Soooo, if I read this entry years from now. note to self: this is what you've been listening to....

1. Take It Slow - Taeyang                                          
2. Wedding Dress - Taeyang  
3. Break Down - Taeyang
4. Bubble Love - MC Mong feat Seo In Young
5. I Don't Care - 2ne1
6. Let's Go Crazy - CNBlue  
7. I Hate You - 2PM
*8. A.Ri.Ga.Tou - CNBlue 
9. Love You Til I Die - MC Mong feat Lena Park
10. Love 119 - K.Will feat MC Mong
11. Sarangalhee - FT Island
12. In The Club - 2ne1 
13. How Do We Get By - Lee Hyori feat Daesung
14. Lies - Bigbang
*15. Koe Wo Kikasete - Bigbang
16. I Need A Girl - Taeyang
17.  Living In The Heart - Untouchable feat Narsha
18. As A Man - Gummy
19. No Other - Super Junior
20.  Fire - 2ne1
21.  I will Give You Everything  - Untouchable
22. Why Did I Fall In Love With You - DBSK
23. Heartbreaker - G-Dragon
24. I Want You Back - Secret
25. We're With You - Kara
26. We Are The One - T-ara
27. Kiss - Dara feat CL
28. Let's Go Party - 2ne1
29. Forever With You - Bigbang
30. Hello - G-Dragon feat Dara
31. Do As You Please - Secret
32. In The Club - 2ne1
33. This Love- G-Dragon
34. Crazily Pretty - DNT
35. Kouita - Tackey & Tsubasa 
36. Move - Taeyang feat Teddy
37. Merry Go Round - Untouchable
38. After You Fall Asleep - Taeyang
39. Superstar - Taeyang
40. You and I - Park Bom
41. Lie - FT Island
42. Missing You - FT Island
43. Last Farewell - Bigbang
44. Sweet Holiday - CNBlue
45.  Tattoo - CNBlue
46. We Belong Together - Bigbang
47. Oh - Untouchable
48. I'll Be Back - 2PM
49. Only You - Untouchable
50. Strong Baby - Seungri feat. G-Dragon
51. It's Ok - Untouchable
52. Clap Your Hands - 2NE1
53. Go Away - 2NE1
54. Can't Nobody - 2NE1
55. It Hurts - 2NE1
56. Love Is Ouch - 2NE1
57. Don't Stop The Music - 2NE1
58. This One (Crying Like A Child) - Utada
59. Oh My Goddess - TRAX
60. Love Love Love - Epik High
61. Driving Me Crazy - Untouchable
62. Am Going Crazy - se7en
*63. However - Glay
*64. So Far and Yet So Close - Glay
*65. I'm In Love - Glay
*66. Okaeri (Zettai Kareshi OST) - Ayaka
*67. Kizuna - Hi-Fi Camp


* J-Pop


EDIT: 12-08-2010
I've started to foray into J-Pop the past couple of months and so I've decided to add some of my fave songs on the list here. It's not strictly K-Pop now but still Asian sound.:) I only wanna be able to locate one article with all my fave songs so I'll just keep on adding here. Anyway, a lot of K-Pop artists now are debuting in Japan.CN Blue also are all Korean but debuted and made their name in Japan first before going back to Korea to do a proper debut. Koe Wo Kikasete is a Japanese song for a J-Drama but sung by the Korean group Bigbang. Haha, what am i trying to do here. I'm just worried some die-hard KPop fans stumbles into this blog and bash me for inserting JPop songs in the list,lol.:)


... and no, this is not a ranking. too difficult to even try. Oh well, good morning Living World!! I woke up to some rain outside. Great recipe for a perfect morning: the soft sound of the rain, a cup of hot coffee, this music, and a good reading material (online or otherwise :p ).



Wednesday, August 4, 2010

i Don't even know what to say... ~

*sigh* just got back from work and decided to poach some eggs for breakfast...or dinner ( being on the graveyard shift. the first one ran all over the pan. ok... the egg's old. the second one... hhmmm things starts to look up!... the egg's looking really good!! pats myself on the back.. so the egg's finally done, and that's when i realized i forgot to sprinkle in salt.. oh well, so much for premature jubilation. when it's not your week, it's really not your week...

ok, so this is getting to be a really lame blog, my lamest ever. and a pity since it's been a long time since the last one. I have yet to blog on my short vacation at home, I had a really great time btw. But it's mainly because since I got back, life hasn't given me much of a break. I am in such a muddle lately. And it doesn't help that  I'm in the midst of a month long training right now. some days I'm doing well. other times I'm not. I don't know if it's because of all the external factors that's been happening lately. I have no problem facing up my demons. it's just a bit of a challenge when it's several demons at one time. I mean, I'm certainly not a Winchester.

but then, there's a reason why someone coined the term "poker face". where I am right now, it's not a happy place, but neither is it a sad place. just difficult. and I can't recall a week when I had to use ALL my "feel-good-encourage-yourself" sayings:

" this too shall pass.."
" the reason why God gave us a neck, He meant for us to stick it out.."
" never lose sight of your goal.."
" again, this too shall pass..."

I want to say more but I really really have to sleep now.  it's an hour and a half past my bedtime. I hope I wake up early tonight to write more, I really need to let this out.. Before I get lazy again and do an awol on you Blogspot...

P.s. I hope I'm feeling better next week. So help me God. Hwaiting!!  ~

EDIT: 2010.08.07 4:32pm

Haha. Failed to wake up early. In fact, I woke up sooo late. Woke up at 7pm and work starts at 8. Man, I miss home. They never get tired of waking me up every morning lol.:)