i Don't even know what to say... ~

*sigh* just got back from work and decided to poach some eggs for breakfast...or dinner ( being on the graveyard shift. the first one ran all over the pan. ok... the egg's old. the second one... hhmmm things starts to look up!... the egg's looking really good!! pats myself on the back.. so the egg's finally done, and that's when i realized i forgot to sprinkle in salt.. oh well, so much for premature jubilation. when it's not your week, it's really not your week...

ok, so this is getting to be a really lame blog, my lamest ever. and a pity since it's been a long time since the last one. I have yet to blog on my short vacation at home, I had a really great time btw. But it's mainly because since I got back, life hasn't given me much of a break. I am in such a muddle lately. And it doesn't help that  I'm in the midst of a month long training right now. some days I'm doing well. other times I'm not. I don't know if it's because of all the external factors that's been happening lately. I have no problem facing up my demons. it's just a bit of a challenge when it's several demons at one time. I mean, I'm certainly not a Winchester.

but then, there's a reason why someone coined the term "poker face". where I am right now, it's not a happy place, but neither is it a sad place. just difficult. and I can't recall a week when I had to use ALL my "feel-good-encourage-yourself" sayings:

" this too shall pass.."
" the reason why God gave us a neck, He meant for us to stick it out.."
" never lose sight of your goal.."
" again, this too shall pass..."

I want to say more but I really really have to sleep now.  it's an hour and a half past my bedtime. I hope I wake up early tonight to write more, I really need to let this out.. Before I get lazy again and do an awol on you Blogspot...

P.s. I hope I'm feeling better next week. So help me God. Hwaiting!!  ~

EDIT: 2010.08.07 4:32pm

Haha. Failed to wake up early. In fact, I woke up sooo late. Woke up at 7pm and work starts at 8. Man, I miss home. They never get tired of waking me up every morning lol.:)