i was lying in bed, waiting for sleep to come. when there was a flash of an image in my mind. a picture of leaves on a tree, after a rain in the early morning sunshine.. with droplets on the leaves falling hesitantly as wind blows at them.. it was like an HD image. i dunno, maybe I've seen them on tv as a kid, a close up shot or something. i asked myself too, or was it only in my dreams when i was younger? but for some reason, it chose to resurface into my conscious mind this very afternoon. i scrambled to sit up, grabbed my laptop and fought hard to capture the image into words, as it was both beautiful and calming, and this is what i came up with:
was it only in my dreams?
the image of the leaves the color of fresh green
the soft light of the early morning sun
reflected upon dew from last nite's rain
and the droplet of water falling with a spark
..ever so hesitantly
as the wind softly blows
was it... only in my dreams?
if the words fail to conjure the image i had in my mind. i found a picture nearest to it. not quite the exact image, but close.
minutes later: oh well, it's a wallpaper and i tried resizing it several times but i still can't upload the pic. will edit. dang! it's almost 2! i cannot be late again tonite. oyasumi-nasai! @_@
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
J-Drama: Hotaru No Hikari
info from asianrice.tv
Hotaru no Hikari
ホタルノヒカリ / Glow of Fireflies
Description:
Hotaru works for a famous interior design company. It's a glamorous job but Hotaru's private life is totally the opposite of glamorous. She lives alone, and when she isn't working she's mostly lazing about her rented house in training wear. She's not interested in men. In fact, she isn't interested in anything. "I'd rather lay around than fool around," is her motto.
Her landlord is a bar owner, and one day his son, who has just separated from his wife, comes to inspect the rental property, not knowing that someone is living there. He is shocked at the mess, but not as shocked as Hotaru. He turns out to be her boss, Takano. -- Japan Times Online
Her landlord is a bar owner, and one day his son, who has just separated from his wife, comes to inspect the rental property, not knowing that someone is living there. He is shocked at the mess, but not as shocked as Hotaru. He turns out to be her boss, Takano. -- Japan Times Online
Yay! another gem!! I feel so lucky to have come across these Asian drama's, the experience when i forayed into this genre had been nothing short of amazing! maybe because I could actually relate to most characters, their actions are something i can imagine myself doing. ahhhh.. but there will never be a dull moment in this life from now on. Now with this Japanese drama (or jdrama/dorama, it should be noted as well that drama doesn't necessarily mean it's a tear-jerker), i swear I've never laughed so hard since Harold and Kumar GoTo White Castle, humor is totally different though. Amemiya Hotaru is like ME x 10. she's sooo clueless. God! her actions brings back memories of my clueless days as well. Plus, she identified what I am.. a himono-oona.. needless to say, I'm starting on Season 2 as I write this. ^_^
Thursday, November 18, 2010
oh..no! i think i've become a himono-onna!!
i am so shocked about this realization i just had to post it immediately! more on this tomorrow.. gotta sleep..
edit: 11.20.2010 8:30am
ok, I have been watching this J-Drama Hotaru No Hikari which is sooo darn funny (but more on that later) and the character Amemiya Hotaru is what you would call a himono-onna. The impact of this word is sooo much that it became one of the top buzzwords in Japan in 2007. Now, there are several definitions of this word based on the drama:
pinktentacle.com:
Dried-fish woman [himono onna - 干物女]: Himono onna ("dried-fish woman") is an expression used in the movie Hotaru No Hikari to describe the main character, a woman in her 20s who has renounced the pursuit of romance. She spends her evenings reading manga and drinking at home alone, and she spends her weekends lazing around in bed. She's a dried-fish woman.
urbandirectionary.com gives a more direct/straight-from-the-movie definition:
japanese slang meaning: "dried fish - woman". "himono-onna - girls in their twenties whom outside their home puts on a lively face, but as soon they get home, they change into their shirts and their hair are tied up like a samurai-style topknot, and they might even scratch their ass. snack in one hand, and canned beer in the other. on weekends they don’t go to blind dates, when they don’t have work they eat and sleep and eat and sleep and not a single guy around them." -- from Hotaru no Hikari (jdrama).
However, the definition that made me say "ahhh, so I am not alone afterall.." is this.. unfortunately, i forgot to copy the website cos at that time I just copy-pasted this into a notepad (if the author sees this,pls holler so i can credit you properly):
Interestingly, many Chinese young office ladies are leading such a life right now. Every weekend, they would rather stay in their apartments sleeping, listening to music or watching movies instead of going shopping or doing sports with friends. According to them, their work is really boring and exhausting, thus they only want to rest in their little private niche on weekends.
That, right there, explains it all in one go. Man, I am so relieved! I thought I'm like a freak-of-nature, behaving abnormally or against what society would deem as normal. Hah!! So everybody does it then, lazing around on weekends.:) Finally, there's a term for this, it feels like pretty much how one would feel upon discovering that there's a name for what ills them. When I think about it, this had been my lifestyle for about 7 years now, right after finishing college and entering the working world. I started living away from home after high school and from there, it became a series of dorms-boarding houses-apartments. ahh yes, work has its ups and downs, but mostly i find it tiring... it's numbing. *sigh* that's why i've been telling some people that I'm different at work and at home.. I can be really cheerful at work but at home, i just want a quiet atmosphere.. and i simply cannot be bothered on my days off. so yeah, that 3rd definition killed it, i couldn't say it better myself. i think it's my way of "recharging" myself. i may think and look at things differently from most people but come mon-fri, i have to present a facade that's socially acceptable. Thank God, i have 2 days when I can be a himono-onna!
otp, i make sure i have my comfort food around when i'm on my himono-onna mode.. and one of the requirements for it to qualify as a comfort food are: it has to be easy to make, store bought, or instant. Like this one! <3 it soo much! so oishii!
edit: 11.20.2010 8:30am
ok, I have been watching this J-Drama Hotaru No Hikari which is sooo darn funny (but more on that later) and the character Amemiya Hotaru is what you would call a himono-onna. The impact of this word is sooo much that it became one of the top buzzwords in Japan in 2007. Now, there are several definitions of this word based on the drama:
pinktentacle.com:
Dried-fish woman [himono onna - 干物女]: Himono onna ("dried-fish woman") is an expression used in the movie Hotaru No Hikari to describe the main character, a woman in her 20s who has renounced the pursuit of romance. She spends her evenings reading manga and drinking at home alone, and she spends her weekends lazing around in bed. She's a dried-fish woman.
urbandirectionary.com gives a more direct/straight-from-the-movie definition:
japanese slang meaning: "dried fish - woman". "himono-onna - girls in their twenties whom outside their home puts on a lively face, but as soon they get home, they change into their shirts and their hair are tied up like a samurai-style topknot, and they might even scratch their ass. snack in one hand, and canned beer in the other. on weekends they don’t go to blind dates, when they don’t have work they eat and sleep and eat and sleep and not a single guy around them." -- from Hotaru no Hikari (jdrama).
However, the definition that made me say "ahhh, so I am not alone afterall.." is this.. unfortunately, i forgot to copy the website cos at that time I just copy-pasted this into a notepad (if the author sees this,pls holler so i can credit you properly):
Interestingly, many Chinese young office ladies are leading such a life right now. Every weekend, they would rather stay in their apartments sleeping, listening to music or watching movies instead of going shopping or doing sports with friends. According to them, their work is really boring and exhausting, thus they only want to rest in their little private niche on weekends.
That, right there, explains it all in one go. Man, I am so relieved! I thought I'm like a freak-of-nature, behaving abnormally or against what society would deem as normal. Hah!! So everybody does it then, lazing around on weekends.:) Finally, there's a term for this, it feels like pretty much how one would feel upon discovering that there's a name for what ills them. When I think about it, this had been my lifestyle for about 7 years now, right after finishing college and entering the working world. I started living away from home after high school and from there, it became a series of dorms-boarding houses-apartments. ahh yes, work has its ups and downs, but mostly i find it tiring... it's numbing. *sigh* that's why i've been telling some people that I'm different at work and at home.. I can be really cheerful at work but at home, i just want a quiet atmosphere.. and i simply cannot be bothered on my days off. so yeah, that 3rd definition killed it, i couldn't say it better myself. i think it's my way of "recharging" myself. i may think and look at things differently from most people but come mon-fri, i have to present a facade that's socially acceptable. Thank God, i have 2 days when I can be a himono-onna!
otp, i make sure i have my comfort food around when i'm on my himono-onna mode.. and one of the requirements for it to qualify as a comfort food are: it has to be easy to make, store bought, or instant. Like this one! <3 it soo much! so oishii!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
..a fish out of the water.
*sigh* that perfectly describes how I'm feeling lately. a fish out of the water.. I feel like I'm not in my element, nothing seems to go right, everything seems to be out-of-sync. haaay, ang sakit sa dibdib. i absolutely don't wanna post anything about work anymore here, however this is the only place where I can rant without giving anyone bad vibes. i just had a fight with my sister, one of those adult fights where no one wanted to be the one to break the silence..and then today, i got reprimanded at work. well, not really reprimanded, got a feedback that I'm not performing well, not as well as before, not as well compare to others. Now, I'm usually welcome to feedbacks if it helps me to improve but I just wish that the feedback comes with figures. I'm the type that doesn't generally respond well to external motivation and I'm certainly not motivated with monetary incentive, or discouraged by the lack of it. I always want to perform well, I love it when I'm doing well, I compete only with myself. I guess that last part can be both a good thing and a bad thing. However, what irks me the most is when I am being compared, especially without numbers, data, figures on areas that can be measured. I NEED to know where I stand, what areas I need to improve in, where I'm lacking, but for the love of GOD, I N-E-E-D figures!! Otherwise, I might just take the feedback as just an opinion... subjective.
God! I feel like I'm losing control. In a sense, I am. I've been used to doing outbound calls and we're usually totally in control. I have to admit I'm struggling with this switch to inbound cs/sales.. I feel like I always seem to be walking across thin ice. I never quite know what to expect. It's like that movie, "Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get". In my case though, it just seems like a box of really bad candies, and my stomach is just about to turn. oh, someone is on the verge of a meltdown!
Ralph Marston to the rescue! I followed him on Twitter cos one of my supervisors from before used to post his quotes. I usually tend to ignore his posts but today they seem to be talking to me:
God! I feel like I'm losing control. In a sense, I am. I've been used to doing outbound calls and we're usually totally in control. I have to admit I'm struggling with this switch to inbound cs/sales.. I feel like I always seem to be walking across thin ice. I never quite know what to expect. It's like that movie, "Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get". In my case though, it just seems like a box of really bad candies, and my stomach is just about to turn. oh, someone is on the verge of a meltdown!
Ralph Marston to the rescue! I followed him on Twitter cos one of my supervisors from before used to post his quotes. I usually tend to ignore his posts but today they seem to be talking to me:
"Take a breath of fresh air. The past is behind you. Focus on what you can do, not on what you could have or should have done."
"Stop repeating to yourself the reasons why you can't. Begin reminding yourself why you must."
*sigh* then again, maybe, I am just making excuses. I should stop making excuses. ahhh I need to think about this some more... ha! grateful that we always get a new day to start over. Hope things will improve soon. i don't wanna worry too much about work. After all, i don't wanna turn 60 y.o. and realize I spent 50 of it slaving away in a cubicle.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
J-Drama: Absolute Boyfriend (Zettai Kareshi)
Absolute Boyfriend
Title: 絶対彼氏 / Zettai Kareshi / Absolute Boyfriend
Tagline: The Completely Perfect Boyfriend Robot
Number of Episodes: 11
Japanese Cast: Aibu Saki, Hayami Mokomichi, Mizushima Hiro, Sasaki Kuranosuke, Ueno NatsuhiTagline: The Completely Perfect Boyfriend Robot
Number of Episodes: 11
Synopsis:
Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops “Night Tenjo”, the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night’s devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her. –Fuji TV
Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops “Night Tenjo”, the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night’s devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her. –Fuji TV
cr: asiandrama.wordpress.com
Yay! was so happy today cos I could finally sit down and finish watching it without interruption. Picked up on ep 8 and wthin just about half an hour into it, i must have uttered more than 5 OMGs already. And by ep 9 all the way to the end, it was just me sobbing, and praying "Lord! Please please give me a good ending!" Although I would have wanted a different ending, but I know it wouldn't be logical. Damn! I hate it when everything has to be logical!^^ (after the finale, episode 11, they released a special episode that wrapped up everything for the series).
Now, someone made a comment on one of this drama's youtube clip:
"one of the best goddamn dramas ever and its all bcoz of Night. T^T"
and I say, Hell yeah!! If I have 50 million yen to my name, imma buy myself my very own Tenjo Night.
*sigh* Night-kun, aishiteru!!
Definitely, one of the best Asian drama I've ever seen. It's on my top 5 ( along with Meteor Garden,
Utada Kimi Wu Aishiteru, Cyborg-She, and My Sassy Girl). ahhh crap, my eyes are hurting and i have to go fix myself some ginger ale for my throat now...
Monday, November 8, 2010
Let Me Hear Your Voice..
Koe Wo Kikasete ( 声をきかせて trans: Let Me Hear Your Voice ) - Ohitorisama OST
Koe Wo Kikasete is one of my favorite Bigbang (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Big_Bang_(Korean_band)) songs. It was a breath of fresh air since it was the first time I heard them sing in Japanese. I loved it the first time I heard it, being an OST (Ohitorisama), the melody is really nice, loved GD and T.O.P's rap, and it also displays how good their vocals are. As usual, the language barrier definitely wasn't a problem. But then, when I came upon a translation of the lyrics, it just blew me away. whoah! who could have wrote this? I felt I just had to post it here. reading the lyrics, it is for me, "visually" arresting, especially the first and second verses. *sigh* i could almost feel the love and the longing in the words.
minutes later:
o-m-g!! i just found out it was Teddy who composed the song!!! I mentioned him before in one of my previous blogs - YG's producer (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Teddy_Park#2006.E2.80.93present:_Producer_for_YG_Entertainment). I sooo love the guy to pieces! I knew he wrote most of the songs for 2ne1's debut album together with Kush but since this song was an OST for a Japanese soap, i didn't realize he wrote it too. wow! so now he writes in Korean, in English, and now in Japanese. haha I sooo envy his girlfriend. i may not know him personally but from what I've seen on 2ne1tv and bigbangtv, he seems like a really nice person. sooo happy to be a fan. Teddy-sshi, hwaiting! ^^
Koe Wo Kikasete is one of my favorite Bigbang (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Big_Bang_(Korean_band)) songs. It was a breath of fresh air since it was the first time I heard them sing in Japanese. I loved it the first time I heard it, being an OST (Ohitorisama), the melody is really nice, loved GD and T.O.P's rap, and it also displays how good their vocals are. As usual, the language barrier definitely wasn't a problem. But then, when I came upon a translation of the lyrics, it just blew me away. whoah! who could have wrote this? I felt I just had to post it here. reading the lyrics, it is for me, "visually" arresting, especially the first and second verses. *sigh* i could almost feel the love and the longing in the words.
minutes later:
o-m-g!! i just found out it was Teddy who composed the song!!! I mentioned him before in one of my previous blogs - YG's producer (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Teddy_Park#2006.E2.80.93present:_Producer_for_YG_Entertainment). I sooo love the guy to pieces! I knew he wrote most of the songs for 2ne1's debut album together with Kush but since this song was an OST for a Japanese soap, i didn't realize he wrote it too. wow! so now he writes in Korean, in English, and now in Japanese. haha I sooo envy his girlfriend. i may not know him personally but from what I've seen on 2ne1tv and bigbangtv, he seems like a really nice person. sooo happy to be a fan. Teddy-sshi, hwaiting! ^^
English Sub:
Koe Wo Kikasete ( 声をきかせて trans: Let Me Hear Your Voice )
until now, the rain kept falling
and the smell of ashphalt lingered in the city
over there.. it's stopped raining, hasn't it?
in the west, it's begun to clear
in the mornings, will you get up every day without trouble?
even now, that's the kind of thing I worry about
the sky that's spreading, the freedom
neither of these things have changed
right now, it's just that.. it's just that you aren't by my side
let me hear your voice
if we can be honest with each other, surely
we could understand each other
open your heart
let me hear your voice
the path that we've walked, we definitely took
an important step towards the future
the first time that I met you
was the same season as now, wasn't it?
the lit up streets
they glowed beautifully
the cry-baby you were; you, from that time, often
would place your forehead on my shoulder
and cry - that warmth
I felt it so strongly
every person individually, no matter who they are carry
troubles as they live
and desperately hold onto their broken heart
let me hear your voice
if we become gentler
we're bound to love each other
don't avert your eyes from mine,
let me hear your voice
let's move on, from these insecurities and this loneliness
our feelings in this moment become a bond
yeah, since you went away hasn't been the same
in my heart, all I got is pain
could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain
sunlight, moonlight, you lit my life, realize in the night
while love shines bright
cant let you go; we're meant forever, baby let me know
this past without you, can't forget you
letting me be, the cloud hanging above me
raining on me; missing your touch
nights get long and it's hard to clutch
we're apart breaks my heart
it's all for the best girl you're my world
in time my love unfurls
he will then wait for you girl
let me hear your voice
if we can be honest with each other, surely
we can understand each other
open your heart
let me hear your voice
the path that we've walked; we definitely took
an important step towards the future
credits - mori90 @ soompi
Sunday, November 7, 2010
what if you were deleted...
.. from a "friend"s facebook friend list? Honestly? I really couldn't care less. I'm just confuse why people left and right are posting a link that would enable one to find out who deleted them on facebook. Like really? Like you'd really spend a minute of your day getting that FB application so you can check who erased you from their online social life?! First of all, if they deleted you, that means they're not a real friend.Secondly, nahhh, it's just not worth it. Besides, I do this all the time too, but only to those who are "friends" with me only so they could flood my wall with pictures of merchandise they're selling online. Also, i would understand if some people would delete me, I mean if they're strongly averse to a certain music genre that I'm really into, they might need to delete me since I like sharing music and videos on my fb. If there are artists that i like who's coming out with a new album for example, i spam my wall with teasers and all that lol. So, with anything online, I suggest just taking it with a grain of salt.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
I Kissed Dating Goodbye...
One of my workmates had been telling everyone that personally, she doesn't wanna settle down yet... the biggest factor in her decision to take the plunge is that she already wants to have a baby.. that's it. she feels
pressured that she's nearing the big 3-0 and that she might have a difficult time conceiving if she'll have it
in her 30's... and well.. she has a point. but i feel like giving her my 2 cents... i told her " well, it's
like, welcome to the rest of your life. if you can imagine yourself spending the rest of your life with him
then by all means, go ahead."
Pondering on this later, i thought, that, right there, is the reason i'm still single. I'm not gonna make the jump just for the hell of it. That, and the book called I Kissed Dating Goodbye which I read in high school. I didn't
realize the impact of that book on me until much, much later. Basically, what the book says is that when you're
not ready to buy, don't go shopping. When you're not ready to settle down, don't date. which is quite fucked
up really. well, to some extent, it has its logic. But when you think about it, there's nothing really wrong
with dating. it's basically like two friends having a good time over dinner or something, right? uh,i wouldn't
know. Reading such a book at such a young age left a big impression on me, so much so that I really didn't go out with anyone my entire college life. i was sooo scared of this phenomenon called "getting-pregnant-out-of-wedlock" that to prevent that from happening, i didn't, at all, dated. ok so yeah, there's condom and pills and all that, but I wasn't gonna sleep with just anyone. There has to be emotions involved. And you get emotionally attached with a guy if you know them, right? if you're going out with them? so to cut the nip in the bud, so to say, i didn't. that zeroed out the probability. So yeah, I was naive, make that IS naive. am living in the past. am a cave woman. was a freak. lol. am taking back that last one. But that's me. Fast forward to the working world, and I had another excuse. too busy. And i think, to be brutally honest with myself, I also think it's because am too lazy and selfish too. lazy.. like a flower waiting for a bee (can a flower chase a bee?! lol crazy thought). selfish... i want ALL my time to myself. i treasure my ME time so much. i love sleeping. i love just surfing the net.. watching a movie. reading a book. I am happy with just myself. Though I'm completely aware that a few years from now, this line of thinking will change. That, as cheesy as it may sound, I'm gonna need someone to complete me. I know, I may be happy in my single blessedness now but I could still be happier if I have someone. And I'm not gonna lie and say am not hoping to find that someone that's meant only for me. 5 billion people. oh man, the odds are not looking good. Especially for someone who miserably failed Dating 101. In the end, the thought of dating for me is... just that. just a thought. My take on it now is that I'd have a greater chance learning a new language than settling down anytime soon.
On second thought, a potted flower can go places. hhmmmm. =)
pressured that she's nearing the big 3-0 and that she might have a difficult time conceiving if she'll have it
in her 30's... and well.. she has a point. but i feel like giving her my 2 cents... i told her " well, it's
like, welcome to the rest of your life. if you can imagine yourself spending the rest of your life with him
then by all means, go ahead."
Pondering on this later, i thought, that, right there, is the reason i'm still single. I'm not gonna make the jump just for the hell of it. That, and the book called I Kissed Dating Goodbye which I read in high school. I didn't
realize the impact of that book on me until much, much later. Basically, what the book says is that when you're
not ready to buy, don't go shopping. When you're not ready to settle down, don't date. which is quite fucked
up really. well, to some extent, it has its logic. But when you think about it, there's nothing really wrong
with dating. it's basically like two friends having a good time over dinner or something, right? uh,i wouldn't
know. Reading such a book at such a young age left a big impression on me, so much so that I really didn't go out with anyone my entire college life. i was sooo scared of this phenomenon called "getting-pregnant-out-of-wedlock" that to prevent that from happening, i didn't, at all, dated. ok so yeah, there's condom and pills and all that, but I wasn't gonna sleep with just anyone. There has to be emotions involved. And you get emotionally attached with a guy if you know them, right? if you're going out with them? so to cut the nip in the bud, so to say, i didn't. that zeroed out the probability. So yeah, I was naive, make that IS naive. am living in the past. am a cave woman. was a freak. lol. am taking back that last one. But that's me. Fast forward to the working world, and I had another excuse. too busy. And i think, to be brutally honest with myself, I also think it's because am too lazy and selfish too. lazy.. like a flower waiting for a bee (can a flower chase a bee?! lol crazy thought). selfish... i want ALL my time to myself. i treasure my ME time so much. i love sleeping. i love just surfing the net.. watching a movie. reading a book. I am happy with just myself. Though I'm completely aware that a few years from now, this line of thinking will change. That, as cheesy as it may sound, I'm gonna need someone to complete me. I know, I may be happy in my single blessedness now but I could still be happier if I have someone. And I'm not gonna lie and say am not hoping to find that someone that's meant only for me. 5 billion people. oh man, the odds are not looking good. Especially for someone who miserably failed Dating 101. In the end, the thought of dating for me is... just that. just a thought. My take on it now is that I'd have a greater chance learning a new language than settling down anytime soon.
On second thought, a potted flower can go places. hhmmmm. =)
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